So for the past few months, I have been trying very hard to avoid the reality of labor and delivery. And let me tell you, this stage of pregnancy has been hard to avoid. I swear every BabyCenter newsletter has a whole section dedicated to "live births" or people want to volunteer the details of their traumatic experience. So you ask, why am I trying to avoid all of this and remain in a state of ignorant bliss? Quite simply, it scares the crap out of me. The pain, the hospital, the fact that anything can happen...all of it. I miss the days of believing the stork brought my little brother to our house.
But one thing I keep thinking about is holding my beautiful little girl and our first moments together. So I'm giving you fair warning to laugh at me or think I'm some crazy pregnant lady but I wonder, is it wrong if the first glimpses my child eventually gets of me are weavealicous vs. natural?
Again, I prefaced this all with the fact that this thought is probably super irrational, trivial, silly, etc., but it is one that I keep thinking about. Probably because my hair is one of few things that I an actually control. Am I some type of a fraud if she sees me with with my weave and lashes (oh yes, lash extensions are my latest obsession -- post coming about that)? Or should I be stripped down and natural like her?
I'm leaning towards the weave because I can only imagine how my natural hair would look after hours of labor.... it wouldn't be cute. And maybe I am slightly vain for wanting to look somewhat decent when my child comes into the world. It would be nice to have a fresh pedicure and for my hair to look presentable.
And quite frankly, I can't be the only one who has had this thought. I know that some woman have full make up on, fresh for those post delivery pictures with their little bundle of joy. Soo poo on you if you are judging me! I'm just writing down what some people are thinking about :o).
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